Remember when you thought you lost you cigs on our first date and I was crying from laughter cos your embarrassed face was just too dramatic - remember eating pizza on the floor in my old house - and when we tried Turkish food in Liverpool - and Ethiopian food in Leeds - what about walking in Victoria Secret with you and you dying - chasing the sunset in Chapel Town - our walks to the park - Batman and The Joker - that LOVELY Dragon Ball movie I had to watch at the cinema because it was supposed to be the shit, however... - When I overtook you with my go kart, cos I did - Dutch Pot together like there is no tomorrow - You adding curry powder to the food when I wasn't in the kitchen trying to trick me - running to the toilet - driving in Tesco’s parking lot - racing on the stairs at the airport in Bruxelles  - watching and recording each other while sleeping to catch our funny faces - our first failure of homemade pizza - our arguments on everything and anything - our first badminton competition - when I played the ukulele for you the first time and you wanted to disappear - when you finally heard the “say you love me” song and laughed for 15mins cos you couldn't recognized the song (yes, I used to make up the lyrics) - when I drew E.T's face on your pinkie - you pausing Mr Robot (and any other TV series) to explain to me what I missed after falling asleep - when we realized that no matter how, why, who and what...at least we had each other.

Yeah cos... when everything went wrong, we made it right (or at least that's what we thought we were doing).

Do you remember when it all went to shit? 

You want him to apologise to you cos you want him to carry some of that pain you caused. The truth is…he is not capable of that. Find your own peace baby Anna.

Tears and more tears,

Anna